Yesterday, my mother told me that my grandmother (who is in the hospital) was about to pass on. I then rushed to the hospital, but found myself unable to stay with her until the end.
I wanted to write that I got through prelims because of her, that I always thanked her, that I always hoped she found herself in a happier place and that we supported each other - but she constantly worried that I would not be well-off even though she always cheered me on and was there for me when I fell.
My parents always told me she was doing well, so that I would not worry about her. I feel terrible that I did not treat her better and that I was not there for when she needed me. I must believe that she is in a better place now.
I could have kept this private, but I wanted to share what I am going through so that everyone can understand that my grandmother was so proud of me and my accomplishments, and so that my fans can understand me a bit better. I am asking you to please send good thoughts my way.